John 3:16

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

All Your hope, and all my pride...

I had a great time in Atlanta this weekend! I got to see my Granddaddy for the first time in a long time and it was great! I love my family.

I also got to ride the bus.. and the MARTA (aka scary subway). I did not necessarily enjoy this part of Atlanta, but I'd still definitely visit again. Mostly because when I got to see Louie Giglio and Chris Tomlin and Christy Nockels, it made up for anything else!

They were amazing, and I'll try to post pictures in a later post, no time today! I only took a few anyway, because I was way too into the worship and listening to the vision they have for Atlanta and the world. It's a beautiful thing.

I would rather be cast away.
Separated from the human race
if i don't bring You glory.
I want to hide in You
The Way, the Life, the Truth
So I can disappear
And love is all there is to see
Coming out of me
And You become clear
As I disappear

Do you ever get tired of things always being about you? I'm not pointing fingers, except at myself, I guess. It's so exhausting always worrying about what affects me. how I feel about things. how I can help myself, better myself, make others look at me. I go through stages like this, sometimes.
I honestly do not live my life this way, always being consumed with selfishness. I used to be that way, before I found that God has a great purpose for my life. Now, I try to live most days trying to do things for other people and love other people. And I don't say that to seem "spiritual" or "holier-than-thou." I'm not holier than anything, or anyone. I'm really just being honest, and trying to get out of this rut!

I think i'm going to re-read this book. Just to help me gain some perspective.

Take my heart, and wring it out
In Your hands and watch it all collapse
Take Your Love, and drive it in
Into my soul, and never leave again...

because I am so afraid that I’ll find myself alone
Looking for a savior, looking for a home
I am so afraid that I’ll find myself alone
Looking for a savior, Lookin for a home
So don’t leave me here alone

All Your hope, and all my pride
All this time to watch it all collide
When everyone seems to say, “You can work it out”
Under my skin, I’m shaking and I can’t get out

So don’t leave me here

This is not what You've said; it’s all in my head
And I throw my anger at You instead
So don’t give up on me, I want to believe
That You’ll never leave me, but...
I am so afraid that I’ll find myself alone
Looking for a savior, looking for a home
I am so afraid that I’ll find myself alone
Deep into the ages, deep into the fold
I am so afraid that I’ll find myself alone
Looking for a savior, looking for a home

So don’t leave me here alone
Don't leave me here.... alone....

3 loves:

BethAnne said...

you love your family


your family loves you!

Eddie said...

Hey Granddaughter: I loved seeing you also. You are just tops in my book. I can't imagine you being selfish or all about your self. Everything I see from you seems like Jesus to me. Stay that way, Love Jesus like there's no tomorrow and always know that He loves you so much and never forget that your family loves you so much. I'd have to say, every family member is very proud of you and your love for Jesus. Come back to Atlanta anyday, just so I don't have to go downtown with you, I'm not a downtown fan at all. Your always welcome at Granddaddy's house.

Mitchell said...

Glad you enjoyed your trip to (Sodom)Atlanta...I was also not crazy about you riding the BUS or the (drug/convict train) MARTA. I want you to be able to feel safe when you go on these the next time you and your friends (blind leading the blind) decide to go to ANY CITY bigger than ....(blountville)Kingsport, please consider the advantage of A MALE ESCORT!!! I would be glad to supply any funds to said MALE ESCORT/BROTHER/FRIEND that he would need for his part of the trip. Yes...I will pay someone to go with you next time for protection and (MINE AND YOUR MOTHERS) piece of mind. I know this may seem a bit's my job.

Love you....Dad