I guess I owe you guys a late "Happy New Years!"
It's officially 2009, but I can't remember to write that on papers I have to sign. It's just going to be weird to write 2010..... 10. Weird.
I'm not making any "resolutions." If I lose weight, then that's cool. If I eat better, well it can't hurt anything. If I stop procrastinating.... BAHAHAHA, like that'll happen. My point is, I always break resolutions, so I'm just not making any!
I honestly have nothing to write! I don't even really have anything inspiring or important on my mind because I'm tired. But I wanted to make an update so you all don't give up on me!
School starts next Thursday, and I can't say that I'm looking forward to it. I'm actually dreading it. I am not really loving ETSU. It's not that it's not a good school, or that I don't like what I'm studying, I do. I just feel so called to serve God, but I feel useless sitting in the classrooms at a state school that is dripping with anti-Christian attitudes. It reminds me of when Donald Miller was talking about how he went to Radford after he became a Christian because Radford is known for being full of atheists. He went there specifically because he knew there would be a lot of people to learn from, and plenty of things to challenge him.
I wish I were that brave. I hate the fact that I feel like the only Christian on campus. Hate it. I wish I could go somewhere like Liberty University. I love that place. It drips with excitement and ministry! People are just waiting to pour into you, and give you great opportunities to pour into others. People find ways to channel their God given talents into productive ways to change the world.
I guess sometimes I wish for "greener grass," but I should be content where I am. I just wish I could find a friend at school who honestly loves God and doesn't change when they're around other people.
I feel God calling me to serve him in what some people call "full time ministry." I don't really even know what that means, though. I mean, the thought of working at a church like mine isn't very appealing. I love going to church to learn and teach others. If church was a job, would it still be place of learning and growth and fellowship?
I'm just ready for "church" to break out of the four walled building that I visit a few times a week. I want to travel. See more of God's creation. Meet God's people, and experience different cultures. Maybe it's whimsical or just a young lady's dream, but the more I travel outside of the tri-cities, the more I want to leave. The more I want to just serve in the parts of the world where they need clean water, or just hug children that need love.
I need out of the routine. Change.
I'm ready to trade a building, for the Body.
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Wait, this could be fun! Answer these questions, blog readers. I wanna know...
Do you have a green thumb?
Are you a good speller?
What kind of critters are you scared / nervous of?
Do you collect anything? What?
What is something that makes you cringe?
Do you have any weird habits? What?
Name Something...
wonderful
wacky
weird
wild
wimpy
witty
wrong
well-dressed
wool
warm
weak
worn-out
wise
whole
white
worthy
wowzers
whimsical
There ya go! Have fun :-)
3 loves:
Hang in there baby girl...3 more semesters and you will have finished the education race!!! By the way...I am extremely proud of you; just because your you. I think you should blog about recent BOOKS (ahem...) that you have read.
Love ya
Daddy
Hey gal, this is your granddaddy and I'm in agreement with your dad. Your at a very important time in your life and you need to just be patient and learn all you can. As far as going to ETSU vs Liberty. Let me say, it's great to work at church, it's great to work around Christians, but let's just be honest, that don't prepare you for life. Real life is not around Christians all the time, Real life is not working in a Christian environment all the time. God has a plan and for His plan to work for His glory and honor you must be patient. We need to learn not to be conformed to this world we live in, but allow the transforming power of Christ to make us a great light in a very dark world. That's when you are doing God's work. Love you bunches and expect nothing but great things because you serve a great God and He loves you very much.
Sorry Anna that it has taken me so long to comment on your last post. Guess you got your procrastination from me. The way you are feeling is so like life in general. I know that you have strong desires to serve on the mission field but ETSU is the mission field right now for you. Going on the foreign mission field is not like taking a mission trip. The people that are there 24/7, every day serving and ministering to another people probably feel like you said working in a church would be. Maybe at this very moment in your life, God needs you right where you are and at the same time you are getting an education. The way you are feeling is much the way Paul felt but as he said (paraphrased) he had resolved to be content in whatever state (or country) he was in. Hard - it's really hard to do that but resolve to savor each day, wherever you are, and glorify Christ by being obedient in witnessing and living the set-apart life before those you come in contact with. You are where you are because He placed you there.
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