Blogging at school.

So I now only have time to blog when I'm at school.

It is hard to have 2 jobs and go to school full time.
Actually it's just hard to work and go to school, at all, right Mom?
I don't know how she does it!


I have a confession to make. And what better place to do it than on the blog that your whole family reads.
I've been stuck in this complacent state of heart, for much longer than I have experienced in years.

At first, I thought it was because I was so busy. But I can make time for God if I really want to.

Then I thought that it was because I had so much information from school coming into my brain. But God says to hold His word in my heart.

So maybe it is because God's not giving me opportunities to minister like He did when I went to Nicaragua or when I go out with my friends and we minister together. But I have realized that God hasn't moved. And His plan for me hasn't changed. In Jeremiah 1:5, God says “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Then, today, it's like God just said "Hello, Love. I've been here the whole time, you just haven't been looking at me."

"He must increase, but I must decrease." John 3:30

I have been increasing myself.
Every day I get up and say "What do I have to do today? How can I get it done quickly? How can I find time to relax? How will I get all this done?"

But all that time spent increasing, much more must be spent decreasing. I must decrease so He can increase in my heart, in my life, in my family, in my church, in my school, in my work, in my community, in my state, in my country, in the world.

He must be increased above all else.

Heavenly Father,

Thank you Abba, for this revelation. Forgive me for my complacency and laziness. Give me the strength and resolve to decrease, as You increase. Lord I want to disappear as You cover every aspect of my life, and shine out of me like a beacon of hope to souls lost in dark hopelessness. I want people to see You when they look at me. Thank You for Your love and Your patience with my hopeless failures. Use me. Empty me. Let me sink into your love and grace and never look back. Please allow me to share the love that You have so graciously poured on me over and over. Let it overflow in my life and touch those around me.

Amen